you shouldn't give it if your gonna take it back!!!

They say...(i'm not exactly sure who they are) that love finds you when you least expect it...when youre NOT looking...and I believe this is true...infact I know it is true it has happened to me...just when I get comfortable with me and being alone someone has to pop into my life and screw it all up for me!!! And yes...they screw it up...cuz then my focus goes from loving life and the beauty it holds to wanting to give all my love to someone...and the beauty I was seeing in life seems to diminish because for some reason the person gives me thier love in a most beautiful way...then they get scared...and they take it back!!!! People should not give me thier love if they are not going to let me keep it!!! Almost six months ago I was loving life...enjoying the beauty everywhere I went...content with myself and being alone...and then it happened to me...and my head has been all mixed up since then...my heart hurts everyday all because someone gave me thier love and then took it back...and I have been severely affected by it...so much that I am beginning to feel I dont ever wanna love again...and thats just not me...I wanna love...I don't want to be like all those people out there who wont let someone love them because they have been hurt too many times...but that is where I feel I am heading...or maybe at the moment I am just feeling I dont really want to love anyone else except that particular person...I dont know...I see this wall going up around me...and I am almost content with letting it be there...
I do know I just want to give my love to someone that will give thiers and never take it away!